a glass of wine later....

Alright so I'm finally home, have my glass of wine, and now I can empty out my thoughts to you before passing out...

we lost...we lost...we fucking lost. that sucks. stupid boys team playing with their heads in their asses. i mean really?? one loss and they get all sorts of psyched out. plus the only one who could hit a shot consistently was boyer. I mean come on guys!! You have a serious shot at the title and you are blowing your chances. ugh!!!

my eyes are so tired...this whole not sleeping thing is catching up with me. like i sleep but i cant breathe when i sleep or something so i wake up all the time and dont sleep through the night. it sucks and im starting to fall apart. good thing im taking my vitamins and getting lots of fluids or i would be sickly by now.

so yea...i did a lot of thinking today. a lot about my past...choices i made, places i ended up, things i did. and i realized something...as much as life has sucked sometimes, i dont regret one thing that happened because it made me into the person i am today and i am so much better for it. i mean, so i have had some relationship issues...to the max lol. but look where i am now. i am with a guy who is fantastic for me. he keeps me grounded, keeps me realistic, makes me a better person. he treats me like gold, does everything he can for me, but has taught me to value the time we have together and not get hung up on the details. i mean there are times when i get tweeked out over stuff that has to do with us, and the distance can be hard, especially when some of the people you hang out with insist on making it known that they are together and happy and all about their own relationship...but when we do see each other, when i get home or when he comes out here...it makes the time we have together that much better. i cannot wait for this summer...hell i cant wait for spring break to get here. just some time for ourselves. it's going to be amazing. but like....i did a lot of thinking today about how i have been in the past, who i was with, what i let happen, how i acted, what i did....and i said it in my last post, i love where i am now. i am glad that i went through what i did because it was a learning experience (yes i kick myself sometimes for being so stupid when i was younger) and helped bring me to where i am now, but i am glad that i am finally here. i like what is going on right now and i only see positives in the future

ugh...ok i think thats all that was really on my mind. im gonna go pass out now. thanks for listening :D