sigh....yea that pretty much sums it up. I had such a good week last week. I mean, nothing went wrong, everything seemed to go smoothly and i was totally stoked for break and this weekend specifically. And then...just when i thought i was out scott free...BAM!!! Like a fucking train wreck. A god awful fucking train wreck ran right through me and left me a crumpled broken bleeding mess on the tracks...
Ok so maybe it's not that bad, but all I know is, this weekend did not go nearly according to plan. Not even a little bit. It was supposed to be a great weekend with the boy to start off my break, and yet, Idk what to do about it. I guess I'm just stuck dealing with it and I'm not really sure how. I want to be angry and upset and pissed off. I want to throw things and punch holes in the wall and cry my eyes out. I want to freak out and throw a fit and let the world know that I am upset. And yet...I want to just hold my head up high, wipe away the tears, and realize that everything will be ok. I want to say that I can handle this, I can deal with things one at a time. I can say that this is just a change and things will be ok. See why I don't know what to do?
Fuck....fucking A. That's all I got I guess, I'll check in again some other time...
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