One month later

God I love blogging...

ok so it's been a month since John and I got back together. Lemme tell ya, it's been so awesome. Im hoping it's not just because it's "new", it doesnt feel like thats it. It actually feels legitimate and I'm so happy. I don't think ive been this happy in a very long time. It's nice to have this someone who actually gives a shit about me. He is so cute, like last night I was really down and depressed over some things that I can't control. Like....these things are out of my hands, but they affect me indirectly and it sucks ass...anyways, John was all about making me feel better and making me feel good about myself. It's so nice. He told me that he will be there for me whenever i need, even if that means giving me time and space to figure my shit out, he just wants me to be ok. I was literally crying while I was at work. I just can't put into words how awesome I feel...I feel great about myself, I feel confident in myself. Not overly confident, but more confident than I have been in a very long time. And I know that some things in my head and my heart are messed up, based on the things that have come to light recently...but he is willing to deal with it and work with me on them....its just awesome.

Ok we're talking on the phone now so I'm gonna go...night

ps my grammer and punctuation sucks....idk why lol