And vacation is officially over...

I had all these things I wanted to blog about, but now I have forgotten most of them, or can't figure out how to verbalize them...for the record.

Omg...what a week. What a freakin week. What a wild vacation...ok, so here goes.

I am so totally in love with the boys. Marcus and Donovan are so freakin adorable. I mean I am seriously, 100% in love with them. Sunday night I really really connected with Marcus and I need to be with them. The boys were very uncomfortable after all the attention from the day. They seemed to be a little backed up if ya know what I mean, and Lauren was holding Marcus when he started to really get fussy. She turned to me and I helped Leslie bring them inside. I got to swap babies a bit, feed them both pear juice to make them feel better, then I held Marcus for what seemed like a lifetime. It was amazing...like words can't descibe how I felt during those moments. It was like nothing I have ever felt before, and I doubt I will feel for quite some time.

I am in love with those boys...more in love with them than with anyone I have ever been with.

So I've decided, for my college graduation, I am giving myself a gift. I am going to give myself a vacation as a gift. I am going to go on the greatest road trip of my life, drive across the country, and visit the babies. They will be a year old by then, their new house will be all fixed up and ready to go, my car will be able to handle it...I am going to drive across the country and visit my family. I haven't decided if I want to bring anyone with me...as of right now, I kinda just want to go by myself. But I have close to a year to figure that part out. I am going to seriously start budgetting myself, saving money right away, and save up enough so I can afford to drive across the country. It's going to be life changing and amazing, and everything I could ever want, and I am going to go. I am determined. This is going to be my year.

This is going to be my year, fuck the world. I am going to do great in school this year, I am going to do some serious research and be successful at it, and I'm going to graduate from college. I am going to be confident in myself, I am going to be amazing. I am fucking Kasey god damnit! This is going to be my fucking year!